A published book and several published essays later, I stopped telling people I was 'merely' a blogger, but that I was a professional writer.
And of course, because of my acting and theatre background, and because I live in LA, the next logical step was to try my hand at writing pilots.
I love the creative control of it, the ability to tell stories that are rooted in my own experiences, but more than that. I have always loved making people feel emotions. Being an actress was definitely a major part of that. But with my writing, I can make people cry, I can make people laugh. I have so much storytelling power with being a television writer -- way more than I have being an actress.
Because, even with extraordinary talent, an actor can be overlooked. But a writer... with that same amount of talent, can be celebrated.
In January 2017, when I was a writer for the CBS Diversity Sketch Showcase, a literary manager was invited for a Q&A and told us that no lit rep would take a writer seriously unless they had a few pilots in their portfolio.
"Guess I better learn how to write a pilot," I thought to myself.
And I did. I read books, I joined writers groups, I read scripts, I offered notes on scripts to other writers, I joined Facebook groups focused on writing, and I wrote 3 pilots and 5 specs, and just 33 months after thinking I needed to learn how to write for television, I got the call from NBC asking me if I'd accept their offer to join the 2020 Writers on the Verge fellowship.
I didn't think it would be this fast; I didn't think I was 'smart' enough to actually have this opportunity. I have been The Struggling Actress for so long, I thought I'd at least be The Struggling Screenwriter for at least half that same time.
I am lucky. I know I am only in this program because of the help people offered to me. Friends who have given thoughtful and insightful notes on my work, people who have blogged how-to's on screenwriting so that I could search and learn from them, others who have suggested opportunities for me to join, or apply to, or all of the many countless other things.
Yes, I worked hard. Yes, I made sure I was ready. But holy shit, you guys. In comes down to this, fellow struggling actors: You are already smart enough to tell stories in ways other than just acting.
And if I can do this, so can you.
There may just be more opportunities if you learn how to see just how many paths there are in this town.
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