So I'm following WA's advice and going into my Plan B commercial audition with an "I'm a booker!" attitude cause I want to be more like her. I mean, come on! She gets parts offered to her and is sweet enough to offer me words of encouragement and advice. I asked her to give me an honest professional actress opinion on my new blindsided clip and she had nothing but nice things to say. So! I AM going to be more like her.
My goal for 2010 is to BOOK WORK, but like, National Campaign type work, or perhaps a Pilot Presentation that goes to a few networks and they love it and LOVE ME and want to keep me in the role and we make the entire pilot and everyone loves it and suddenly I'm WORKING on TV in a comedy that allows me to discover things about life I never knew. As you can tell, right now is a high for me. I'm riding a high.
The trick to this high, I really believe, is writing in here every day AND having several projects on my board to do when I'm feeling low. The amazing part of my "Going To Do" list is that it all involves WRITING. And that is exciting. Because I used to describe myself saying, "I can write, but I'm not a writer." Well! Isn't that negative?! I AM writing! Sure, I had a long dry spell where I started doubting myself and stopped writing for a while, but I am reinvigorated. Ideas keep coming and places to get published keep showing up. I've had pieces I wrote three computers ago that I had to keep transferring that I think I can finally finish and I'm excited about new stories.
And I love the fact that "I'm a Booker" can have a double meaning for me. I book acting work, but I'm also writing for a book. A booker!
At 16, when I had to decide what it was I wanted to major in and what schools I should look into that offered great programs, I was always split when it came to majoring in theater or writing. I knew back then I was going to feel like I missed out on which ever one I didn't choose, and I wish I knew that as long as I kept writing everyday, I'd be fine.
I'm fine! And I'm HAPPY.
And even more importantly, I'M A BOOKER!