"The label you give yourself cannot impact external forces that are not motivated by your own psychology or influenced by a third party's pre-existing consciousness of you. We are all presented with reasons to struggle which come from completely external forces; to pretend that one is not struggling is either arrogance or an admission of defeat. To admit that one is struggling is a sign and a source of strength." - Evan A. Baker

Monday, November 28, 2011


There's a space in time when even a Struggling Actress can feel like there is no limit. It happens every so often.

It's happening now.

Last Monday, my acting teacher coached a client for a series regular role. He emailed me the sides, with "Your people need to get you in for this." I read the three scenes he attached and of course, of course. From the description to the sides, it's so right for me. As if someone was watching me for the last three years and said, "Hey, I'm gonna write a role for you."

I put myself on tape.

I posted on facebook -" I wish I could email this casting director my audition and she'd write to my reps, 'Where has she been all this time?! She's wonderful!'"

And get this - a casting director I've worked with asked me what role and show, and three days later, he asks if the CD called me into her office yet, because he called her himself and pitched me.

Yes, that really happened.

My manager also just emailed my taped audition to the casting director directly.

We might be completely out of the game already - we might be days too late - BUT - with all these people in my corner, it just makes me feel like Okay! I have an entire TEAM behind me, rooting, cheering, trying to get me in there. "She is worth it! She is talented! She Should Be Seen!"

And maybe, just maybe, I will be.


  1. hopefully this will be the start of something really big, at least it shows how many people really support your career and you have made an impression upon. congrats.

  2. I am crossing my fingers so tightly for you right now, will have to stop wearing shoes with laces for a while... xx

  3. good for you for taking control - such rare chances to be able to do that, but you have to try!

  4. Yay!!!! That is so awesome to hear!!!!

  5. My heart has skipped a beat - I am so excited for you

  6. I'm on the team too! :) We all need to be in each other's corner :) You're amazing and it will be recognized! Congrats, just finding out that so many people believe in you is huge in and of itself.


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