Can you tell?
I'm stagnant, I'm bitter, I've got no motion in my ocean, and a lot of the blame needs to be put on myself. I could be doing more.
I should be doing more.
And so I read the Actors Access breakdowns and yet continue to grow angry. And angrier.
I should be making more money acting. Oh fuck, I should be making ANY money at all, but still Nothing this year. Nothing. Nada.
And then I read this blog post from Actor With a Chip, and I feel better. I feel better. Because it's not just me. It's everybody. It's the whole business model and what's happened, what's happening.
The Struggling Actresses in LA are not alone. We're surrounded by all the other 20-33 year old actresses who are also still struggling, and Actor With a Chip believes, "the current crop of 20-33 year old actors are in for a very long winter. And I think most of them will drop out in short order."
It's a long winter. That's okay. I'm here. I'm not stopping. I will still be here when no one else is.
In the meantime, I will keep on studying in class, keep on writing, keep on creating content. And I will still be here.
I will still be here.