"The label you give yourself cannot impact external forces that are not motivated by your own psychology or influenced by a third party's pre-existing consciousness of you. We are all presented with reasons to struggle which come from completely external forces; to pretend that one is not struggling is either arrogance or an admission of defeat. To admit that one is struggling is a sign and a source of strength." - Evan A. Baker

Wednesday, October 31, 2012


My friends and I have a cry of frustration whenever we're in a mood:

"I'm Creatively DEAD Inside!!"

And we always laugh because sometimes, somedays, somemonths, I swear to god, doesn't it feel like we can't come up with anything worthy? Doesn't it feel like nothing ever positive happens? Doesn't it seem like we keep on slogging on, with no distance made? We keep going and going and going.

In circles.

So here I am, at degree 360 about to take one more step when I just realize, EFF! I'm back to one!


But hey, circles are cyclical, right? We've been here before, we'll be here again. I'm at the trough of the roller coaster. I'll be at the top of the world soon. Sooner than I know. You will too.

Keep on keeping on.


  1. keep on keeping on, sister. yeah yeah.

  2. Winter is always tough (at least over here) but you'll get through it. As they say, it's always darkest before the dawn! Your sun will shine brightly again before you know it. In the meantime, I'm sure you'll find something else worth your while. Because that's what you need, something worth YOUR while.
    Aroha nui from little ol' NZ. xx

    1. Oh Anita, you're always so supportive! <3

    2. We gotta have each other's back, right? If we didn't, this whole acting career thing would become a pretty lonely road. Can't wait to hear about the way up! xx

  3. Is it ever end game in this career?

    1. Sometimes it feels like that's all this is, but an acting career is something one can pursue until she dies. Talk to me after I book a commercial - I'm sure I'll be flying the highest of highs. Til then.


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