"The label you give yourself cannot impact external forces that are not motivated by your own psychology or influenced by a third party's pre-existing consciousness of you. We are all presented with reasons to struggle which come from completely external forces; to pretend that one is not struggling is either arrogance or an admission of defeat. To admit that one is struggling is a sign and a source of strength." - Evan A. Baker

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

My Piled Up Desk

Since I was a little girl, I was always organized (for the most part). I had things that went in places and they were always in an order, but my desk, however, was always messy. They say that those who like organization prefer left brained things, like math and logic, while those who like messy workspaces are more right brained and prefer painting and reading.

I like organized And messy things.

I've done the 'are you left brained or right brained' tests. I don't have a dominant sphere! I'm either strong in both (or weak. take your pick)!

Curious as to what you are? Take this simple test. Count the numbers below:

1  2  3  4  5  6  7  8  9  10

Got your answer? Great! It's not the mathematics, it's actually how you count the numbers. If you thought, oh, well, 9+1 is ten, 8+2 is ten 7+3 is ten and counted that way, looking at the patterns, you are left brained. If you just added them all up, you are right brained. If you, like me, started counting them and then used patterns, you're both brained!

And I told you all that just to let you know that I have a messy desk and I have all these tasks I need to do, piling up, and my desk is barely recognizable anymore.

....I really should be more concise in my posts.

Anyways, I've been the busy little Struggling Actress here.

I shot a commercial!

Can you see what they're shooting? Nope? Of course you can't! I did that on purpose!

I can't tell you what it was for until it's out (I heard rumblings of maybe September. We shall see.) but what I can tell you, is that I have never had an on set experience like that before. Can't say what happened, but what I can tell you is that my agent is promising to never do business with that production company ever again. And that I'm seriously considering saying eff it, and joining Sag because non-union work really can be awful and I don't have a union protecting me or giving me incredibly great things, like overtime and a required trailer. I could take the money I'm making from this to join, but my car is in SERIOUS need of some repairs and maintenance, so we'll have to see. Who knows, maybe I'll book something else soon, fingers crossed.

I also had a commercial audition on Monday that was just freakin absolutely perfect for me. It's a spokesperson position with possible in-store promotions, and all that just sounds like fun....and like a lot of money.
I LOVED the copy. It was funny and slightly sarcastic and just...for lack of a better adjective, just so Lira! The callback is tomorrow. I need to be even more Lira in the room, and charm the pants off these people. A lot of the callback isn't just how you can act, but also to see if you're someone they want to work with for a day, or, for this particular gig, for the next several. If you're just the right amount of professional and Lira, you can go far!


Also, last night, I was a part of a television pilot reading for the writers of the webseries I did two weeks ago. Blogger reader Vida (sorry if I misspell!) was there as well and said she loved my blog!
Vida: I'm sorry. It always catches me off guard when people tell me they read this. It feels like I'm just journaling in here most times, and when someone says they read my blogs, instead of being smart and sweet and saying, "Oh my gosh! Thank you for reading!" I just say, "uh. Cool." Like an IDIOT. I don't know how to respond and if you felt I blew you off, I'm sorry.

AND, I also have two indie film auditions!

Like I said, I've been extremely busy. If I'm not driving to set, or to an audition, I'm going over sides or copy.

Feels good!


  1. Proud o'ya! You give me hope and I cannot wait to see you in those indie films... x

  2. Your blog is great, I'm sure tons of people read it :)

    Congrats on the commercial :) and sorry about your icky experience :(

    Good luck with the audition! After all, who could be more LIRA than you?

  3. I'm reading in reverse, yet again as I play catch up with your journey. Despite any not so good experiences, congrats on all the work that is swirling around you! See..proof that summer isn't a dead time. There is work out there!

    Keep is up! Summer isn't quite over yet.

  4. OMG, I'm behind in my blog reading and just happened upon this post. No worries hon. I should apologize to you for being so loud and excited when I met you in person. Great job at the reading btw! Also, I just messaged ya.


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