"The label you give yourself cannot impact external forces that are not motivated by your own psychology or influenced by a third party's pre-existing consciousness of you. We are all presented with reasons to struggle which come from completely external forces; to pretend that one is not struggling is either arrogance or an admission of defeat. To admit that one is struggling is a sign and a source of strength." - Evan A. Baker

Tuesday, July 19, 2011


I wish I had good news to share with you. I don't.

I didn't receive a call from my agent yesterday about booking the gig that would have been super awesome. It was down to me and one other girl, so I thought, well, they'll put us BOTH on avail, but maybe they skipped that part and booked the other girl directly. This, oddly enough, is a huge relief, because I don't know if my nervous stomach could have handled another few days of "You ALMOST got it! Hang tight!"


As I'm trying to remind myself, getting to the top two is just another indication that I'm doing something right at these commercial calls. That trusting my instincts is a great thing, and that I'm really growing as a Struggling Actress.

My life isn't going to change right now, but you know what? Life right now is pretty good.

It really is.


  1. You can't be the winner every time, but you are still doing great! Don't let this one thing get you down. ;)

  2. You're exactly right, you are doing something right to get you to these commercials and then to be the top two!

    Something I have to do every once in a while is step back and asses where I am now as opposed to where I was a year ago. This is a huge sign that you are indeed making the right choices and trusting your instincts (which are apparently spot on) is coming easier for you.

    You're doin' great out there.

  3. This IS good news. It means that you are free for that amazing project you are MEANT to work on and which will lead to even bigger and BETTER things that you are destined to do! xxx


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