"The label you give yourself cannot impact external forces that are not motivated by your own psychology or influenced by a third party's pre-existing consciousness of you. We are all presented with reasons to struggle which come from completely external forces; to pretend that one is not struggling is either arrogance or an admission of defeat. To admit that one is struggling is a sign and a source of strength." - Evan A. Baker

Wednesday, July 13, 2011

My Piled Up Desk

Since I was a little girl, I was always organized (for the most part). I had things that went in places and they were always in an order, but my desk, however, was always messy. They say that those who like organization prefer left brained things, like math and logic, while those who like messy workspaces are more right brained and prefer painting and reading.

I like organized And messy things.

I've done the 'are you left brained or right brained' tests. I don't have a dominant sphere! I'm either strong in both (or weak. take your pick)!

Curious as to what you are? Take this simple test. Count the numbers below:

1  2  3  4  5  6  7  8  9  10

Got your answer? Great! It's not the mathematics, it's actually how you count the numbers. If you thought, oh, well, 9+1 is ten, 8+2 is ten 7+3 is ten and counted that way, looking at the patterns, you are left brained. If you just added them all up, you are right brained. If you, like me, started counting them and then used patterns, you're both brained!

And I told you all that just to let you know that I have a messy desk and I have all these tasks I need to do, piling up, and my desk is barely recognizable anymore.

....I really should be more concise in my posts.

Anyways, I've been the busy little Struggling Actress here.

I shot a commercial!

Can you see what they're shooting? Nope? Of course you can't! I did that on purpose!

I can't tell you what it was for until it's out (I heard rumblings of maybe September. We shall see.) but what I can tell you, is that I have never had an on set experience like that before. Can't say what happened, but what I can tell you is that my agent is promising to never do business with that production company ever again. And that I'm seriously considering saying eff it, and joining Sag because non-union work really can be awful and I don't have a union protecting me or giving me incredibly great things, like overtime and a required trailer. I could take the money I'm making from this to join, but my car is in SERIOUS need of some repairs and maintenance, so we'll have to see. Who knows, maybe I'll book something else soon, fingers crossed.

I also had a commercial audition on Monday that was just freakin absolutely perfect for me. It's a spokesperson position with possible in-store promotions, and all that just sounds like fun....and like a lot of money.
I LOVED the copy. It was funny and slightly sarcastic and just...for lack of a better adjective, just so Lira! The callback is tomorrow. I need to be even more Lira in the room, and charm the pants off these people. A lot of the callback isn't just how you can act, but also to see if you're someone they want to work with for a day, or, for this particular gig, for the next several. If you're just the right amount of professional and Lira, you can go far!

*Wink*

Also, last night, I was a part of a television pilot reading for the writers of the webseries I did two weeks ago. Blogger reader Vida (sorry if I misspell!) was there as well and said she loved my blog!
Vida: I'm sorry. It always catches me off guard when people tell me they read this. It feels like I'm just journaling in here most times, and when someone says they read my blogs, instead of being smart and sweet and saying, "Oh my gosh! Thank you for reading!" I just say, "uh. Cool." Like an IDIOT. I don't know how to respond and if you felt I blew you off, I'm sorry.

AND, I also have two indie film auditions!

Like I said, I've been extremely busy. If I'm not driving to set, or to an audition, I'm going over sides or copy.

Feels good!

Monday, July 11, 2011

Carmageddon

The city is shutting down the 405 from the 101 to the 10 this upcoming weekend to do some major construction work for 48 hours straight, and Angelenos are calling it Carmegeddon. Now, I've heard from some older folks here that when chaos was predicted for the 84 Olympics, and the Pope's visit some time after that, everyone was advised to stay at home. Those who did venture out, claimed it was the best commute of their entire lives.

Some people are also very excited about this, as it promotes staying in one's neighborhood and enjoying some physical activity and local commerce.

Some other people, are making videos to help understand what this freeway closure means to Adolf Hitler. Watch and laugh your head off.

Saturday, July 9, 2011

Crazy Couple of Days

Crazy couple of weeks, really. Cause when I'm not acting, or auditioning, or rehearsing, I have to work as hard as I can, and these posts have to fall by the wayside, which I hate.

Sad face!

So what I CAN tell you:

I shot a commercial! And as I was reading over my contract, I made a mental note to tell you guys: DO NOT EVER POST ABOUT A COMMERCIAL until it's on the air! Don't even describe what your audition was like. I shot one thing a few months ago I still can't talk about because they're going to do something like a sneak attack campaign (or something) and when they searched google and found me having posted "Just booked a thing for "Product X," on my acting website, they contacted my agent and he had to ask me to take it down. (My agent had to take time out of his busy day to do that. I can tell you he was not thrilled.)

The contract I signed yesterday stated that I was not allowed to talk about, give an opinion of, or mention the company's name before the thing aired. AND, some casting facilities are even posting signs saying if you're auditioning, you're "signing" a Non-Disclosure agreement, JUST BY AUDITIONING. Take a look at the walls at the Ivar Underground Casting Facility. I'm not kidding.

I even had Actors Access's public account on Facebook congratulate me on booking a commercial for that specific company, and I had to call up Breakdown Services and ask them to remove that post because it mentioned me and the company together in a public page, available to anyone surfing the internet. Extreme? It seems somewhat to me, but to be on the safe side, make sure your private Facebook account has your posts only available to your friends, if you have a public actor page, don't mention the company, don't mention the product, don't mention anything until your commercial is airing.

I'm also needed for an unexpected additional shoot day on this thing, which means: my agent renegotiated my shooting day fee. Yeehaw!

Also: I have a casting director who tried to get me in to his feature film casting thing a few weeks ago email me yesterday to see if he could bring me in. They still aren't happy with how casting is going for their one character and so they're bringing in more people. I was unavailable the first time because of the web series I was shooting, but now I can come in! And he found me from a project I worked on the previous summer, and calls me his "wild card" because I'm against the type they're really looking for, but he's sure I'll blow them away. Might not be what they originally had in mind, but it wouldn't be the first time I "wasn't right" for the role but still managed to book it.

Work begets work!

So up this week, I've got a commercial audition, a commercial shoot, and two auditions for two indie films. I'm having a grand ole time here, feeling like a real, live actress!

And now, off to the gym with my sides in tow, to memorize, memorize, memorize!!

Tuesday, July 5, 2011

How to Fish for Theatrical Representation

Ah..... four day work weeks. Isn't that the best part about three day weekends? Anyways...

Last Monday I had a commercial audition. Two days later I had the callback. The next day, Thursday, I was put on avail. I spent the last FIVE DAYS in a state of limbo, wondering if I was going to be released like I had been for the last one just a few weeks ago.

Got the call from my agent. I'm booked. I shoot on Thursday.

YAY!

Because, man oh man, is there something to be said about opening up your mailbox and finding a letter with your agency's logo on the return address and finding money inside. Magic Money! From an agency who looked at me and said, "You will make us money. We want you." And that's what I'm doing. Yeehaw!

And now, another type of letter in my inbox  - reader mail!

Betty asks:

Do you have any advice for people starting their search for a theatrical agent in LA?  I've been booking a lot of jobs myself, but it would be great to have a member on my "theatrical team".  Some people think that you get a good theatrical agent just by doing a lot of great work on your own... that they will eventually find you.  But I keep thinking that I should start my search while I'm booking my stuff.  What do you think?

I'm passionate about working on great independent films (that's my first love), but I've been branching out and doing a lot of different projects lately.

Hi Betty!

Yes, it's true that that you'll get a good theatrical agent by doing a lot of great work on your own, but when people say that, they mean you had a boutique level agent who got you in the door of a big project and you booked it, and then WME or CAA come in and lured you away.

But when you're without theatrical representation now, the above isn't very likely to happen.

So do what I did (or don't, cause I'm a Struggling Actress, ya'll) and clean up your resume (with the how to here), contact a casting director who has cast you and ask if they wouldn't mind you using them as a referral, write a short and sweet cover letter stating that Casting Director knows your work well and is happy to talk to the agent about your skills (put down their phone number!). Then mail it --- wait. Did I just jump ahead of myself here? Oh dear.

You can buy the Agency Book at Samuel French which has the addresses and little notes about each agency and whether they might be looking for your type. But you ALSO have to get imdbPro (can't afford it? try their FREE 14 day trial) and look up each and every single agency. Daunting? Have a friend help you. Have three friends help you! Go through every agency, see who their top stars are, and where the starmeters (which really don't mean anything) of their average clients are. Let's say you have a starmeter of 78,000. You want to be at an agency that has lower starmeters than you. You want to be with those around 30,000 and lower. So you double check the address, make notes on notecards, and you and your friends get together and put your packages together. (also, very important, write "referred by "so and so" on your envelope. It's way more likely to get opened.)

Last summer (and summer is the best time to do this!!) I had my top 20. I submitted, made notes on my card when I submitted, felt incredibly proud of myself and ....I got a phone call!!! From the HOUSE OF REPRESENTATIVES!!! The voicemail said thank you for submitting but they weren't taking on new clients at this time. 

Want to know what is depressing? (incidentally, not the phone call from the House of Reps; I thought it was so lovely that they called me to let me know. Who does that?!) Submitting to 20 agencies and not getting a meeting out of it.

Well, eff that!

So I changed my headshot and did it again three weeks later.

AND THEN AGAIN.

It took me three tries to finally get some one to call to set up a meeting. But - I got TWO meetings on the third try. That's weird. But perseverance and a little chutzpah pay off.

It's stressful and daunting as hell, but I had my top 20 list and no more. I only had 20 agencies I wanted to be with. I knew that most of them were mostly dreams, but the ones that called me were the ones I wanted to be with and I wasn't going to settle for less than what I wanted.

Persevere. Perseveres. Persevere.

And good luck!!
xoxo
Lira

Monday, June 27, 2011

Post Wrap Blues

When I'm on an amazing and fun project where I get to laugh a lot, there's usually a sort of mild funk I get into after I wrap. There's a ton of questions swirling in my next morning's cup of coffee: Will I ever have that much fun again? Would those people want to work with me again? When will I get my next job?!?

We wrapped last night on Home At Last, after 6 days of shooting, at an episode a day. And the director and 1st AD got us out of there early for most of the week. THAT is pretty amazing. It was an incredibly efficient crew, a fun cast to work with, and if you want to know how small the world really is, our DP was in my brother's high school class! Crazy!

And the week flew by. It really, really did. That's what happens when you get your face licked 18 times, I guess. It all becomes a blur.

But I'm not able to rest on my seventh day now, uh uh. I have a commercial audition at 10 in NoHo, a commercial callback in Santa Monica at 11:45, a recreated events show audition in Hollywood at 2 and a meeting with my theatrical reps in Beverly Hills at 3:15. I am all over the place today! And it thrills me and excites me, and with my own personal projects also keeping me busy, there's no forseeable lull in my future anytime soon.

I'm on an upswing. I feel good. I have a project in the can I'm extremely proud of (when crew members and your veteran actor co-star compliment your work, it's awesome) and can't wait to see, and know will be great because of the writing and the professionalism of the entire cast and crew. I have things to look forward to.

I also am preparing for the annual camping trip I go on, as well as the day in October I marry the love of my life in front of our familes and friends.

This is contentment. This is happiness. This is the Post Wrap Joys.

May you expereince them yourself, and often.

xoxo

Monday, June 20, 2011

I Know People on TV

I'm sitting with my boo and a commercial comes on. "Hey! That girl's in my acting class!"

Then, immediately following it, is a promo for the show Leverage. "And that's one of the guy's I'll be working with on set tomorrow!"

And then, on ANOTHER commercial break is the guy I used to work with a year ago, and there's ANOTHER commercial, with someone I cast in a webseries pilot I made!

Nice.

Wednesday, June 15, 2011

Post 500

This is my 500th post. Quite the landmark, eh? When I first started this thing, it was more of a chronicle of my auditions and callbacks and how I felt they went. Truly boring! As I kept writing, I found I was more interested in helping others figure out their next step, and writing a post or two about things that really mattered to me.

Here's a post about both of those things.

In a few hours, I am going to pick up one of my best friends (growing up, I had learned on the playground that you can only have one best friend and I always hated that rule, because ranking people you love is unfair. I have several best friends whom I love equally and wholly. You should too! :) Sarah and I have known each other since we were 15. FIFTEEN! So that's [hack, cough!] Ten Whole Years! A Decade! She lives up in Lafeyette and I miss her terribly, but whenever we see each other, it's like no time has passed. She's brilliant, compassionate, gorgeous, and a human being I am so happy to know and love. Whenever I can get her and my other BFF, Gloria, together, it's a fun time, because they are practically the same person, and yet so different. They're two people who make me think, "Why on Earth do they love me so much?!" but I have to squash that negative thought, embrace it, and just hope that I am always the friend they need me to be too.

My last post, Peaks and Valleys, hit home for another BFF, Phoenix.  Even though we artists may have a ton of things going on in our immediate future, it still doesn't seem like enough. And it hurts our hearts, and turns our blood into lead, weighing us down until we can't feel anymore. It's hard. An artist without feeling, without letting herself feel emotions, can't create. But, like the seasons, we have to understand that this happens every year. Leaves fall, it gets colder, and all the cute animals hibernate. But a few months later, everything blooms. Know this happens, prepare for it, and in this day and age, create your own content. Find other things in life that give you joy that isn't acting, and go forth. And like a phoenix, you'll rise again, stronger than before. Keep heart.

For all of you out there wanting to get a Casting Director's opinion of the acting world but can't afford to attend a seminar, Billy DaMota is doing one for FREE. If you don't know him, you are losing out. He champions for our rights and is extremely generous with his time and connections.
FREE SEMINAR/Q+A with Billy DaMota! Saturday and Sunday, July 23 + 24 - 1pm to 4pm at TheCastingDirector.com -see website for address and directions. Attendance is limited so you must RSVP to facebook@castboy.com with your name, tel # and day you'd like to attend.

Format will be similar to The Actors Network guest evenings. Q+A and discussion. So bring your questions and let's make this a habit!
Also, I found this, and think it's a good mantra to have. I printed mine out and am going to frame it in my office. 
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I am also obsessed with a song. It's two years old or so, but I've never been hip to the music scene. I just discovered it. Have a listen: 
If you're like me, you're probably wondered what the heck that high pitched voice is saying. Well, Gloria figured it out! They're sampling a song in Gaelic (which is why it doesn't make any sense) that translates to "Oh, my little boat." But that's not fun, is it? So instead, imagine the high pitched singing is actually:
Please Unicorn, Please Unicorn, Please Unicorn, Eat Taco With Me!
Fun right?
And now that you're probably at the same part of the song that I was at when I was dancing by myself (cause sometimes, ya just gotta dance!) only to be surprised that my fiance was filming me. Of course I ham it up.

Have a wonderful week!

Thursday, June 9, 2011

Peaks and Valleys

The life of a creative is a constant roller coaster. One month you're at the top, looking at the entire city and marveling at how it all works out. The next, you're at the bottom and you can't get an audition to save your life and you're being jerked around and the restraints are really starting to hurt your boobs.

Last month, I was definitely feeling restrained. And a lot of it felt like it was my fault and no one's fault all at the same time. The few auditions I did have, I was put on avail, so I'm doing good work, only to be released because I didn't do the best work. And I was beginning to get depressed. The mouse who has been on the wheel for ten full minutes at a breakneck speed only to realize she's still in the exact dang spot.

The life of a creative is kind of like that. Spinning to nowhere, sometimes, but at least you're spinning.

What should you do?

Make More Friends AND Nurture The Friends You Have.

Find out what they're doing, how you can help. Everybody has an idea in this town, and if you're currently running in the wheel to nowhere, see if you can't stop for a second, gather your bearings, and find out where your other friends are. Cause they might just be at the front of the line at the roller coaster and want you to ride with them.

There's a girl in my acting class I've always liked, but wanted to know more about. Made a frozen yogurt date with her and when I told her that I want to see her one woman show that she's writing (her second, btw), she looked at me and said, "You should write one!"

I've always wanted to. Thought about it for a while. I felt that I needed someone to help guide me, help mentor me, answer my questions.

Guess who now has an incredibly excited and supportive new mentor?

I also met another girl who is normally in the Monday class but came in on Tuesday and we talked for a bit after class. I felt like I already knew her. We made a lunch date for the following day and spent ELEVEN hours together, talking, laughing, marveling at how we were so similar, knew the same people, felt like we've done this before. This girl, who've I only known now for ten days now, feels like I've known her my whole life. We met last week! And now we are molding and shaping a pilot and then a web series, because we like how the other one works, love how we bounce ideas off each other, know that being honest doesn't have to be brutal, and are making things happen.

I have another friend who wanted my help in writing a song parody. She came over last night, we finished 2/3 of it, saw a mutual friend in a play, came back and finished the song.

And tomorrow, I am going to the table read of the web series I booked, because the projects are more likely to come when you are already busy.

Yes, it's peaks and valleys, highs and lows, and the lows can be really low, but the highs - MAN! You just need to extend your hand and you feel like you can touch a star.

Monday, June 6, 2011

Missing in Action for Good Reason

I have a fun little story to share once I have more time to write, but in the meantime, I'm happy to announce that Billy O'Leary is offering THREE Free Classes to go check him out. You don't sit and audit other people, you get up with sides you get the night before and work On Camera! You get to see exactly what you are bringing to the auditioning table.

I love him, think he's brilliant, and know you'll think the same!

Email assist@billyoleary.com and let them know which date you want:

Thurs June 9th, 10am OR
Fri June 10th, 10am OR
Tues June 14th 10am.

Please let them know I referred you!

Wednesday, June 1, 2011

Know This for Next Pilot Season

Ever wondered what happens during Pilot Season? 

This is from 

Inside the Industry Seminar 
synopsis by Tracy Weisert