"The label you give yourself cannot impact external forces that are not motivated by your own psychology or influenced by a third party's pre-existing consciousness of you. We are all presented with reasons to struggle which come from completely external forces; to pretend that one is not struggling is either arrogance or an admission of defeat. To admit that one is struggling is a sign and a source of strength." - Evan A. Baker

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Survey Says

Totally sounds like I have a girl crush on Phoenix, huh? Well, I do! She's a hot little piece! And so when she wrote this and said to go ahead and do it if it sounded like fun, I thought heck yeah! Procrastination Station! And I'd like to thank this one for the idea. So please, go ahead and do this yourself, too!

I've come to realize that my chest-size...shrinks when I work out. All my pretty bras are starting to look like I can't quite fill them out because, well, I can't anymore. Pear shaped women lose weight in their breasts first. So unfair! That's the absolute LAST place we should lose it so we can balance ourselves out!

I've come to realize that when I'm driving…I always try to give people the benefit of the doubt. They do stupid things because they really just didn't see me. We don't call them "automobile on-purposes." Plus, good driving karma is something I really need.

I've come to realize that I need... to be writing creatively more. I really need to set aside some time and focus enough to just have at it. I miss it.

I've come to realize that I have lost... my anger at the Universe for a lot of things. Life is what it is, and I'd be completely different if I didn't experience all that happened. I had to let it all go and I feel like I've accomplished it. No more tallying.

I've come to realize that I hate it when...people ask me what I'm going to do if the acting thing doesn't work out. The rational side of me knows that they're looking out for my best interests because they love and worry about me. The irrational side hears them say that they don't believe in me working hard enough to achieve my goals. And it's hard to band-aid an ego.

I've come to realize that if I'm drunk.... I announce it. To everybody. And I'm not really drunk, but just buzzed. I don't like being drunk in major social situations like weddings and birthdays. Because when I am drunk, I can. not. shut. up. and say the most inappropriate things. Or I fall asleep. At the bar.

I've come to realize that I'll always ... take a jacket with me where ever I go, be it the beach, a movie, a restaurant, the park, a trip to the sun, and I'd like to thank my Jewish mother for giving me the fear of being cold unexpectedly.

I've come to realize that my sibling(s)... look more and more like my Dad as they grow older. And taking after mom, I feel like I'm missing out on the "Oh hey! You two are obviously related and share some special bond!" exclamations I imagine people think when they see other siblings who look alike. I'm the odd one out. And they don't have hair like this.

I've come to realize that my mom... will never get better, that I will not end up like her, and that I think I'd like to visit her more.

I've come to realize that my cell phone... is dying a slow death. I charge it all the time and it loves to show me I have only one battery level left. It's also three years old.

I've come to realize that when I woke up this morning... that I should say yes more often that no.

I've come to realize that before I go to sleep.... I like being spooned. It feels real knife.

I've come to realize that right now I am thinking... that I wish we had a better organization plan for our apartment. And that Anthony put away all the things he took out and played with. It would make cleaning up an easier chore.

I've come to realize that my dad... will never know how much of a positive influence he's been, and how much I miss living near him. He is one of my biggest cheerleaders, and brags about me to whoever will listen. I miss our email conversations that we had my senior year in college. I hope he really starts taking care of himself better so he can be around for my children.

I've come to realize that when I get on Facebook... It's more fun to read other peoples' statuses than to write my own.

I've come to realize that life... is hard. But if you surround yourself with good people, you will always love and feel loved.

I've come to realize that this weekend... is fast approaching and I'm still not scheduled for any work. Here's hoping that I book that audition I have for 9:50 in the freakin am 20 miles from where I live on Saturday morning.

I've come to realize that the best music to listen to when I am upset... is some Tori. Tori Amos gets me, man. I may not understand half of what she sings, but I can find some way to relate.

I've come to realize that my friends... will stay up super late on a work night and are willing to risk looking like fools just to show that they appreciate my friendship.

I've come to realize that I love... jogging. ME! Jogging! I love it! I run a mile quite comfortably in 11 minutes and love it. Also, I need more exercising music. I can only listen to what I have for so long. Recommendations?

I've come to realize that I'm totally terrified... of maxing out my credit cards, but I think this just makes me more American in the zeitgeist.

1 comment:

  1. You are TOTALLY allowed to have a girl crush on me...I have one on you, my dear.

    Also, you're a lot more zen of a driver than I am. And I'm so glad to hear that you might start visiting your mother more often...just make sure you feel safe about that.


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