"The label you give yourself cannot impact external forces that are not motivated by your own psychology or influenced by a third party's pre-existing consciousness of you. We are all presented with reasons to struggle which come from completely external forces; to pretend that one is not struggling is either arrogance or an admission of defeat. To admit that one is struggling is a sign and a source of strength." - Evan A. Baker

Monday, August 10, 2009


I was driving to the Tony&Guy Salon in Santa Monica this morning for a hair modeling gig, and heard the dj on the radio comment how when couples break up, they usually do a major change, like go blond, or go to the gym in order to make their ex jealous. I've not experienced this. When I've been dumped (and it's happened, believe it or not) I didn't go out and try to make anyone jealous. I tried to make myself happy. When such a major shift happens in my personal life, I tend to reflect it outwards with a major change as well.

But investing around $1,000 for headshots, reproductions and uploading tends to make struggling actresses keep their same look for a long time. I've had my same-ish hairstyle for the last 3 years and I was ready for a change. Not because I was dumped, not because I was making anyone jealous, but because I wanted to show the growing and change I've done in the last few years on my outside.

So I was craving blond. and I even loved dark brown with bangs a la Betty Page .
All I knew was one thing: I wanted, heck, needed, to look different than I did. I asked people about bangs and only heard a resounding "NO!"

But there I was, flipping through Tony&Guy's new trends hair book, and the pages stopped on the cutest hairstyle. I didn't know if my curl pattern was loose enough to replicate it, but the model sure was purty! The hair was long on the bottom with bangs piled on top. It was super adorable! And I was so excited that they wanted to do that to me because bangs would be just the change I'd want to make me feel new and stylish.

It's ridiculous, isn't it, how much weight we women give to our hair, however our hair defines our femininty. So I wanted my new definintion to be "hip! trendy! fun!"

I think I got it.

Now if you'll excuse me, I have to go save the orphans from mean ole Miss Hannigan.


  1. so freakin' adorable, kiddo...

    can't wait to hug you somethin' fierce tomorrow night.

  2. Cute! I Personally love hair cuts and changing up my look all the time :)


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