"The label you give yourself cannot impact external forces that are not motivated by your own psychology or influenced by a third party's pre-existing consciousness of you. We are all presented with reasons to struggle which come from completely external forces; to pretend that one is not struggling is either arrogance or an admission of defeat. To admit that one is struggling is a sign and a source of strength." - Evan A. Baker

Friday, April 30, 2010

I Am My Hair Part 2

If I wash my hair more than three times a week, it gets cranky. It frizzes and flies in orbit around my head making me look like Gloria Gaynor. I have to be careful and leave in conditioner so that my hair dries in curls instead of frizz. I need to take care of my hair.

It's a process.

After I met with the manager who said, "I don't know what to do with you yet," I zoomed over to Brentwood to meet the writer director of a webseries who liked me. It was a callback-of-sorts. I didn't have to redo my sides, he merely wanted to meet with me to get to know me as a person and explain the project and his plans for it. It's called "Hollywood & Highland," and I had auditioned for the role of Sydney:

Run of series / Lead / Female / All Ethnicities / 18 - 24 years. Description: Sydney dreams of being a professional stand-up comedienne, but is currently limited to occasional performances at random open mic nights. To make ends meet, she works for a nutty director as his personal assistant. Sydney is perky and fun, but carries a quick witted sarcastic streak. Some would call her a pessimist but she prefers realist.
Project Synopsis: Six friends chase their dreams while surviving in the bizarre and dysfunctional city known as Hollywood. An actor, model, comedian, filmmaker, musician and novelist work a random assortment of menial jobs, while clinging to their creative passions -- the before side of "Entourage." It is a web based comedy series in the tradition of "Swingers" meets 'The Guild'.

When he had called asking me to meet with him, he told me it was between me and one other girl. I remember reading Beth Shea's lament over this because she feels more pressure, which is funny, because I feel victorious when people tell me this. I gots me a 50/50 shot at this! And with my hair personality, how could I not win book? I meet him at a Coffee Bean in his neighborhood and I'm still riding my post manager audition high. We sit and he tells me about the project, about the time commitment, about a lot of other cool things including how he's going to go about viral marketing the whole thing and he says a few things that make me feel pretty awesome inside.

"I had a clear cut picture of exactly what I wanted for this character and then you came in and blew us away." "Now I want to go back and change some things about the character to fit you better."

Whaaaa? I was SO awesome I changed the writer/directors idea of what he wanted for this role? The role he envisioned himself? And now he wants to REWRITE some of it to fit me better!? Rewrite a role!? FOR ME!?


And then the kicker.

"It's yours if you want it, and we'd be lucky to have you."

Whoa, whoa, whoa. What about the other girl?

"We know she could do it, but you are by far our top choice."

I Am My Hair! I Am Dirty Awesome!


  1. I've been following you since last year (BostonBlond here). You have inspired me like nobody's business. Keep on rocking it.

  2. Get it, honey! Congrats. ;)

  3. You are awesome girl! Congrats and keep doin your thang!

  4. Congratulations to your hair! I mean you! I mean.... that's awesome :)

  5. You must have been jumping out of your seat inside!


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