"The label you give yourself cannot impact external forces that are not motivated by your own psychology or influenced by a third party's pre-existing consciousness of you. We are all presented with reasons to struggle which come from completely external forces; to pretend that one is not struggling is either arrogance or an admission of defeat. To admit that one is struggling is a sign and a source of strength." - Evan A. Baker

Wednesday, April 22, 2009

Well, That Happened

The audition happened. Another one where it was "That was great, thanks." Ugh. I'm so depressed. They said "Really nice transition at the end."

I know what that means, when you only read once with no additional directions. Either I'm so wrong for the role physically (which isn't that likely, since I look very much like my headshots) or I gave a pretty terrible read.

I'm bummed today. I was bummed yesterday too. I could use some acting money. You know?



  1. it could also just mean that they saw someone closer to what they wanted already and it's gonna be hard to shake them from that choice.

  2. Ahem. Tempted to point you toward an earlier blog you wrote called "Keep Your Spirits Up."

    You are talented, fabulous, intelligent, witty, hilarious, and gorgeous. I know sometimes life gets you down. A crappy audition does not make a crappy YOU, and we all know (from casting) that there are many, many things going on in a casting room, much of which has nothing to do with us.

    It's okay to feel down every once in a while. Just remember that you are so very, very loved.

  3. I heart you too! Stiff upper lip my dear! Make yourself an angel food cake and shout "Let them eat cake!" It feels really good.

  4. I've developed a new habit after I leave an audition, it's called washing my brain of any memory of it, and only recalling stuff if I get a call back. I've booked things where they were just "thanks" and I left feeling awful and thinking I sucked, and not booked things when they were all "wow that was a really great read are you available for all the shoot dates?" and I thought I totally nailed it!


Play nice.