"The label you give yourself cannot impact external forces that are not motivated by your own psychology or influenced by a third party's pre-existing consciousness of you. We are all presented with reasons to struggle which come from completely external forces; to pretend that one is not struggling is either arrogance or an admission of defeat. To admit that one is struggling is a sign and a source of strength." - Evan A. Baker

Saturday, July 18, 2009

Well, Blow Me Over

So that meeting I had with the director below apparently DID go well because the producer called me yesterday to confirm my schedule and then offer me the role. Fantastic! I mean, check this shizz out; I was not able to go to the actual audition but was taken out to dinner and offered the role anyway! Ah, Hollywood, je t'aime.

I also hung out with my friend April the other day. Our friendship took some twists and turns in the last few years, mainly because of my schedule and lack of available times to get together with her and actually finish all the post production of the film that we did together, among other things. I mean, I hate to say it, but I basically left her high and dry, and if it wasn't for her tenacity and strength, "Junction" would still be sitting in two terabyte drives. And for a long while, I was trying to find the insults in the things she was saying to me, that probably, you know, didn't really exist, because I felt so embarrassed about how I had left everything to her. But I was finally able to mention what I thought was the huge elephant in the room. And apparently, there wasn't one! She didn't feel any resentment towards me; that she valued me for being her partner in the beginning and going through with it, when every one else pretty much laughed us off, sarcastically wishing us much luck. When I was parting ways (after 4 hours of catching up, all of it good) she asked me why I never addressed that issue earlier, and I said because I wasn't sure I was ready to hear what she had to say on it.
April and I (and phoenix!) put together an original female centric show which we wrote, produced and directed all ourselves, and sold out for our entire three night run (our school's first in its history) and we had proved to ourselves that we really can do anything as long as we have the support of one another, and that in life, one always needs at least one person to say, "Hey! You Really CAN Do This!" And April and I were exactly that until a few years ago. So yesterday was a really nice rekindling of a friendship with someone I have been absolutely fascinated with since 1999.

When I had mentioned that I had dropped my manager, something she had been asking me about for the last year, she told me that a manager she knows, who had come to a screening of Junction was looking for new clients and had specifically asked about me the other day, and that she had told him she didn't know if I was looking for representation, but that she was seeing me the next day and would let me know he was interested. She gave me his email, I submitted, and I have a meeting with him this upcoming Wednesday.

July is looking to be a pretty good month.

1 comment:

  1. LOVE. that's all I have for this. Love the new blog look, love that life is giving you so much good, love that positive things are coming into your life.

    love, love, love.


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